Beyond the Boggled Mind

Ramblings of my boggled mind

Fishbowl exercise

So I found something interesting while at work it’s to help couples get to know one another. I thought it would be fun to answer them there are 100 questions I think I will do 5-10 each blog.

1. Describe/or act out your first kiss.
A- So every time I tell someone my first kiss they don’t see why I count it as my first kiss, but it is my first kiss because it wasn’t with family. It was suppose to be a bf/gf kind of kiss because the boy liked me and while yes I liked him I didn’t want the kiss. People say my first kiss was stolen but it wasn’t he was my first kiss and even later years we did date so it was part of our past our relationship and a part of my travels and adventures in life.
My first kiss was when I was about 6 or 7, he was a couple years older than me and just kissed me, I in turn punched him and bloodied his nose. Short and sweet huh?

2. What song gets you in the mood?
A- I don’t think I have just one song, I have many songs, a lot of them are dirty lyrics and just fun music one being ABC’s of kinky sex, something with a good beat and rhythm is nice. Romantic songs don’t really get me in the mood, most music don’t get me in the mood honestly so this to me is a very odd question.

3. What is your favorite romantic or sexy scene in a movie?
A- not sexy or really romantic, but when Simon and Kaylee was sitting together talking on the couch, just getting to know one another. It might not be much but it’s the one part of a movie I find romantic and nice (firefly/serenity).

4. What is the worst pick up line you’ve used or heard?
A- I lost my teddy bear, can I sleep with you?
— Yes it is horrible but kind of cute at the same time.

5. What is the most unusual thing someone has asked you to do in bed?
A- So I’m very open sexually so a lot of things aren’t that unusual to me I think if you enjoy it, its SS&C, and its between consenting adults go for it.
I guess someone wanting to go down on me while aunt flo was in, would fit here because that is defiantly not my thing.

6. What clothes do you feel sexiest in?
A- Fishnets no matter what else I am wearing fishnets would be it.

7. What is your idea of a perfect romantic evening?
A- going out to dinner then walking along the beach and enjoying the sunset and then the moon and stars before going home and cuddling up in bed with her.

8. If you weren’t in your current profession, what would you be?
A- Psychologist

9. Who was your first crush?
A- hum.. hell I don’t know… I guess JTT?

10. If you could have had a relationship-superpower, what would it be?
A- Being able make people understand one another when they have a disagreement. Not sure what that could be called lol.

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Note to My Senior Self

 A Simple Guide to Self-Preservation in my Senior Years.

We read blogs about people writing to their younger selves, I’ve done some myself. Sharing advice we wished we had known in their earlier years. Mainly in hopes that another younger person may read it and benefit from the advice we write. An attempt to somehow lessen the stress of a younger person may have in life as they move forward.

 

So, this got me thinking, based on my life experience to date. What advice would I deliver to myself in my senior years? If I had the change to have a conversation with my older self; what little nuggets would I feel it necessary to share.

Hopefully I will have this tucked away in a safe place waiting for the time to present me with my own words, and for me to listen to my own advice. Knowing myself like I do, I won’t be able to find it anywhere and I will forget to even look back at this blog, maybe I will set up a reminder for it someday to pop up in my calendar. Maybe my wife will print it out for my birthday or something when I’m older so I can read this.

 

April 17, 2018

To the weird crazy old Lady I know you always were,

If you are reading this, I am guessing you are in need of a little attitude adjustment, or you have possibly lost your way or goals. Consider this a friendly nudge from your younger self; to heed your own advice.  I have compiled a list of suggestions for you,  all of them coming from my own head & heart, learned through the difficult process of dealing with well life in general.

This is a gift to you, in hopes that you are of sound enough mind to receive them in the spirit they were written:

  1. Seek ways to put laughter in your day & maintain your sense of humor.

Sadly it seems when we get old, we feel we don’t have as much to laugh about.  We have most likely lost many of our friends, our family & possibly even our life partners.  Some days may feel unbearable, but I urge you to seek laughter.  Do not be the mean old lady in the neighborhood (even though you was kind of that already)!  Find someone to share a good belly laugh with, one that starts at your very core.  Laughter truly is the best medicine!

  1. Practice tolerance & try to stay young at heart.

I am guessing you are feeling like things have changed since you were a young girl. Rather than longing for the good old days, learn to adapt & go with the flow.  Talk to young people about the issues of the world today & listen to what their challenges are.   You are never too old to stop learning!  Be a sponge & soak up the news of today, while at the same time being able to share your wisdom based on your life experiences.  It’s a win-win for everyone!  

  1. Use your manners.

This seems like a no brainer but aging has a funny way of making you forget to use your manners. Please, Thank You & Excuse Me are as important now as they were when you taught your children to say them all those years ago.  Practice what you preached. It’s not okay to fart & not say excuse me.   Unless of course, you are in your own company.  In that case,  see #1.

  1.  Use your filter.

I am not talking about your coffee filter.  I am talking about your social filter.  Think before you speak.  Don’t just start rattling off about things before you give pause to how this information is being received.   It will save you & those around you, a ton of embarrassment.

  1. Continue to exercise.

I know it hurts.  Most likely, you are filled with aches & pains, keep moving!  If you can do nothing else but wave your arms in the air, do it with vigor! Remember the saying, “use it or lose it?”  It still applies!  Get up & move those old bones!

  1. You don’t know everything.

Just because you are old, it doesn’t mean you are right all of the time.  Quite honestly, you have always had difficulty with this one.  I would guess as you age, it will be even more challenging for you.  Stand down my friend.  There are smart people still living, you may meet the odd one now & again, so be prepared to “agree to disagree”- Just saying’.

  1. Be kind & generous in spirit.

These are qualities that have been of the utmost importance to you, all of your life. Extending kindness to people, offering them a safe place to fall if they need it.  Continue on this path, there is only good that come from it.

  1.  Look for something positive each & every day you are gifted.

Quite honestly, seniors complain a lot!  I suppose after so many years, they have lots to complain about, but this can be wearisome to those around you.  I beg you not to be this person.  Look for the positive, don’t be the cantankerous old gal in the group.  Be the gal people enjoy talking to. Continue to embrace every day as a precious gift, seek a wee bit of adventure in your day & put a smile on your face.  Regardless of what age you are, a smile is a beautiful thing.  It can change a person’s day.

  1.  Share your story.

You have had the benefit of living such a rich & full life.  Look through your photos.  You may not recognize all of the faces, but these photos will remind you of how much love & joy has surrounded you in your lifetime.  How lucky you were to experience such amazing adventures in so many incredible destinations, collecting stories from each and every place you visited.  Share these stories, for they are so much a part of who you are.

  1. Your wife/family will most likely have to make some difficult decisions on your behalf.

This is a hard one. Trust me when I tell you this will be harder on them than it is on you.  Never lose sight of how much they love you & respect them enough to hear their position.  It is most likely for your own safety & well-being.

11.Practice Safe Sex.

I’M KIDDING!  I just wanted to make sure you were still paying attention. If you are still getting’ some at your age, trust me, safety is the least of your concerns! Also, keep it kinky!  Sorry everyone, refer to#1!  

  1. Be grateful for the wonderful life you have been given. 

Be grateful for the fullness of your life, the experiences you have had & the people you have loved along the way.   If you are reading this, it means you have been one of the fortunate ones. 

  1. Be patient.

This seems to be a really tough one for you all your life, and I’m sure it’s more so now.  There is a sense of urgency to every little thing you do.  Please, please, please, do not be the prickly senior with a short fuse at the bank, or in the line at the grocery store.  Seriously, where is it you need to be?   Give people the time they need, for you probably have more time on your hands than they do!

  1.  You may need to lower your expectations.

High expectations are something you inherited from your family.  It is not necessarily a bad thing, for it has served you well in what you expect of yourself.   Unfortunately sometimes your expectations are hard to meet, you may need to lower them just a tad.  

  1. Don’t drink too much

Quite frankly, this has always been a fear for you.  Your family history has been one plagued with the wretched disease of alcoholism.  If your wife ever suggest you are drinking too much, stop!  I mean it.  Clean out the cupboards of anything alcohol related, get rid of it!  Period, full stop!

  1. Listen to Music

You have always loved music, all kinds of music.  For some reason when people get old, many stop listening to music.  They find it annoying.  Their car radios & their disc players are silent.  Perhaps they have forgotten how to turn them on?  It’s a mystery to me.  I hope you still listen to music.  It was & is, good for your soul!  

  1. Love your life to the bitter end.

None of us knows when life may end.  Savor every moment.  Find joy in your day.  Try something new, regardless of how scary it may seem.  Never give up on life before it is taken from you. 

  1. Be someone you would like to remember.  

Leave your mark in this world as someone who loved life to its full capacity in every regard.  In doing so, when you close your eyes for the very last time, you will have lived a good life, a full life, an enviable life.  One you were so blessed to have had, & hopefully one that left an imprint on the hearts of those who had the pleasure to know you.

So there you have it, I hope this advice has helped you in small way, offering you guidance in knowing the person you wanted to be.  

Hugs

Your younger self

I open it up to you my friends.  If given the chance, what would you add or share with your older self?

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Blog Question #2

Next blog question on the list:

If someone gave you enough money to start a business – no strings attached – what kind of business would you want to start and why?

It’s really hard but honestly, I’d put it toward my future and buy a building to start a treatment center, higher a few other LCDC’s and have an outpatient center, with education classes like where I work.

This would be only the beginning and I feel it would be important and I’d probably move elsewhere with it, I’m not sure I would stay in this state simply because it has many places in this vicinity and I’d want to go where we/I am needed more.

I guess this is going to be a rather short blog. There is more than that I’d want to do of course sometimes, I want to just drop it all move with my girl in tow and we do crafts/Comicon stuff/computer repair/buildings and it just be us doing it all and go about our life without worries of having to deal with most of the public.

But I also could take the money and run and we become pirates buy a boat and two bikes and just go lol.

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What do you miss about being a kid?

I’m working down a list of questions to help me get back in to blogging.

The first question is :  What do you miss about being a kid?

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What do I miss; I miss a lot about being a kid. Mind you I don’t remember a whole lot, after my siblings were born I normally helped with them. Both mom and dad worked and with the last kid mom was bed ridden before and a bit after he was born.

I think the main thing is not paying bills, like at the time we never think about it. ( I do love living on my own though). I miss being close with my family though as well, I miss my siblings, and parents. My little sister passed away in 09 and dad passed in 2016. My mom is doing her own thing yes we talk but I am almost always busy. I hardly ever talk to my bothers. One I don’t have any way to contact him, he don’t have a phone even. Yes in 2018 he does not have a cell phone. The other brother I talk here and there with him, but we are all busy with life. It sucks sometimes.

I miss hanging out and riding bikes with my friends and going to the city pool and just having fun. I miss a lot of fun times. But, I have fun times with the friends who have stuck by us, I rarely talk with family outside a few people. Sometimes I think they only talk to me is to find out info to go run their mouth to other family members sometimes. I shouldn’t look at it that way but it’s hard when I know how people are in my family and how much they like to gossip.

When I was younger all that wasn’t there because I either don’t remember it or I was too young and didn’t know what was going on. I learned as I got older. I sat and just watched and listened how they’d talk about other family members and now I sit and know my name is in their mouth just how I remember them talking about others.

I don’t know sometimes it’s just what it is you know?

I guess, I just miss the innocence of it all.

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Holidays, stress, sick, and a ring.

So it’s been kind of a busy few months, the last blog was about my new busy life, I’m still at it but it’s starting to slow down finally. Mainly because we have been sick, we haven’t been able to do much other than pushing forward in work and class. Lacking in quality time together, and actually being able to clean the house.

This week is my last day of classes till spring semester so I’m excited to be able to actually rest a bit, I will still be doing my job and the practicum till my hours are done, if I get a job out of it YAY if not, I’m learning at least.

I’ve finished all my shopping for Lilly and I’m not shopping for anyone else nope notta zilch. They are either too far away and wont get the gift till who knows when, or honestly they don’t deserve shit from us. Not like they ever appreciated it anyway.

So the 18th of November Lilly asked me to marry her, We went for a long weekend to a hotel, we enjoyed our time together, went to TRF, enjoyed a nice dinner and told our fave waitress we got engaged and things. Not sure if I mentioned this before. Things have been so busy it’s hard to know what all I talk about plus I have multiple blogs…

Right now I’m sitting here at work wondering if my speech is going to be good enough, I had to do a conspiracy theory and I chose JFK, boy was that the wrong one to do, there is like thousands of conspiracy theories that surround the event. Like none have evidence, none really make since, it’s all bullshit. I’m going over the just of what I can, then in the end explaining how most “evidence” is BS and then saying that I don’t believe in any of them and I stand that Oswald shot JFK the end.

It’s getting cold in here not sure if I’m starting to run a fever or what, but I’m off to get my jacket back on.

I love you Lilly

XOXOX
your future wife,
Raychel

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Always Busy

So, Monday started my new busy life. So here is the run down:

Mondays- Wake up 4am, get ready, make lunch, feed cat (when I remember) sometimes make Lilly’s lunch as well – drive to work (45min)- work from 6am till 1pm, drop off money bags, get to my Practicum (2nd job) from 1pm till 9pm. 9pm leave work and drive (45min) home… eat a super late dinner, shower and go to bed.

Tuesday- wake up at 7, get ready, feed cat, make sure I have everything for classes. drive (45 min) to College, 9 am till 8-9pm in classes, working on home work and things between classes grabbing lunch and what ever else needs done that can be done. drive another 45 min home, dinner, shower, bed. oh and some point feed fish/check hermit crabs feed/water them etc…

Wednesday- wake up at 7, get things ready like normal, make lunch, feed cat, drive to 2nd job (practicum, yes I don’t get paid for this, it’s part of what I have to do to get my LCDC). work 9-6pm, or 10-7 depending on what is going on and what is better for me to learn my skills I will need. Drive back home, fix dinner, shower, spend some time with Lilly since we will actually have it and not just randomness that we don’t get to talk really but today we get to. Mind you yes we text quite often during the day.

Thursday- wake up at 4am get things ready like Monday, drive to work 6-1 there, drop off bags and such like Monday, 1-9 at my 2nd job. 9pm leave work and drive home, no time for shower, eat something, and go to bed.

Friday- wake up at 4am get things ready like normal, drive to work 6-1 there, money bags dropped off, 1-5 at my 2nd job. get to leave at 5pm and go home ( or shop or anything else I need to do that I can) normally the drive is longer since it’s a busy time and most people are getting off around the same time so 45-1.5 hour depending on situations. get home and cook dinner, normally we have to do fast food or something fast at home, or order something. I’m kind of looking forward to cooking today. chill with Lilly, shower and bed and snuggles.

So there is My week, fun right?

The weekend thankfully I have off both days, but I’m doing homework, house work, and just normal things its not quite an off day is it. But I’m looking forward to doing it.

I know Lilly is pretty busy with her full time job, and classes, and pole dance classes, and just everything as well. I hate that I have to ask her to do more around the house now, like taking the trash out or cook, maybe even have to start asking to help with more things as well. I haven’t touched the litter box this week. I will be cleaning it today though when I get off work.

I know this is a strange blog but just someday I will look back on it and I’ll want to remember things like this.

I’ve had a head ache since yesterday and I’m hoping it will go away I’ve took something but its not making a difference right now.

I’m going to blog tomorrow, at least I’m planning to I want to blog about what all I’ve done this week at my practicum, honestly not too much but I’m wanting to learn and do as much as I possibly can. It’s a bit annoying to sit and just watch right now but I know I have to learn right? and watching is learning. I’m more a hands on person but this will work for not I can’t wait to be more hands on and help where I am. I want to help people more I love experiencing it when someone is finally realizing how much they have lost and how much they have done to themselves for something so, so… I don’t know the right word for it. It’s not a small thing because it’s there and it has took over their life, made them lose everything including their freedom.

I think that is enough for now. I hope anyone who reads this might take something away from it, like you have to work hard and really strive for more in this life. And that my friends is just what we are doing. We want to be better and have a better quality of life.

Always,
Glitch

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Harvey 2017

I just want to put this out there, I joke and share memes as much as the next person, most people in texas and other areas who are being pumbled by these hurricans do it for mental relief.
The thing is these hurricans, this flooding, it’s not a joke its fucking terfying. Living through it even though we didn’t have much damage to us at all. I’m watching people I know and some I don’t that have lost so much, some have litterally lost fucking everything.
It’s basically days of being terrified by forces you have no control over,and that you don’t have any idea how bad it will get, and when it will stop. Harvey was my first hurrican, I have been in others but well away from the hit. I was away from the hit this time too but being flooded in where you can’t leave sucks. Not knowing if you are going to wake up to water in your house in the middle of the night. Not knowing if you will end up on your roof, only realizing you have no way ON to the roof. Knowing you are stuck but having hope you wont need saved like so many others.
I’ve been in blizzards where we are stuck in the house for days, but at least the snow and ice isn’t seeping in to your house, forcing you to move higher (if possible) I’m not saying it’s not dangerious but it’s not something where you loose everything you own in one fail swoop.
The death toll last I heard was AT LEAST 70! and who knows how many missing. I don’t even want to think how many animals wasn’t saved.
You have no idea how it is living through it and only watching the news or seeing articles days after. Knowing there are people who CANNOT leave! they don’t have the funds, or way to get out. Some refuse to leave, it is their choice, but that is not a reason to say “well they deserve what they get”.
So if you are in a place where you have no clue about how dangerious, and how mentally and physically draining it is, how truly terrifying it is. Shut the fuck up because you aren’t funny, your little shitty videos and memes you make in your safe little house/yard… you are just being a complete douch nozzel, and you should fuck off.
So, Harvey didn’t get us too bad. We lost electric, work time, and some food. Had to take out a loan to keep everything in order and keep our head above water (figuratively/financially). It was pretty terrifying not knowing what was going to happen or how bad it was going to get. went a little stir crazy having to stay cooped up in the house like we did. We couldn’t get out of our neighborhood really. Thankful for the gas station that was close that had ice and some food.
The worst is watching others loose everything, cars, house, everything in the house, some lives. 70 was the last total, I know there is more, just not found yet. I read an article on a women who found her dad, he had been missing and they found him several days later. I have no idea where or how. Hearing others stories are just heart breaking.
listening to people talk about how they wasn’t sure if they’d be saved, or if they was they’d have trouble because their parent or someone is in bad health and it would take a lot to get them in to a boat or automobile.
It’s been a bit, but no matter how long this will always be with me. Everyone’s story I’ve learned over this time will always be there, the feeling of the unknown, the terror you feel inside and know others are feeling it too but not showing it.
Just needed to get some things off my chest a bit. I’m getting annoyed with people who are in middle America and making fun of this situation that they have never been a part of.
always,
Raychel
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Keeping the circle small.

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The picture I used is physical, but for most it is also mental as well. We all have circles and put people in to groups the same as our personal space.
So, in my life I have several circles so to speak, one is my personal circle honestly it’s only babe and I, because everything that is told to me I tell babe, and vise versa. We keep nothing and I mean nothing from each other, we have no reason to.
The next would be family/friends again very very small most on my facebook (not all) are in this circle.
Then I have school and associates who yes we talk and share in conversations. Sometimes the talks get personal but not too personal really.
The last circle is public most people don’t know anything about me. some new friends still fall in to this catagory and even some family and old friends fall in to this one. It happens.
So you wonder why I’ve cut you or others out of my life, here are 8 reasons why I do. I don’t have time or mind to deal with people like this. Honestly if I could cut out more I believe I would. But also I figure in time others will be cutting me out for who I really am and they don’t understand or have ever known. So onward to the 8 things…
1. Those who show-off There are some people who seem to have no other purpose in life then to make others jealous or envious of what they have achieved. It’s easy to spot, and is merely an indication of their lack of self-worth.
2. Those that are ignorant There are many different brands of unintelligent behaviour. There is the ever so harmless lack of brain-cell dumb that can’t really be fixed, and the willfully ignorant and self-absorbed kind of dumb. Some of us may have met someone who is famously incompetent because of their constant sense of self-pride and inability to make the right decisions, or learn from the consequences.
3. The parasites We have all been in bad circumstances at some point in our lives. In fact, most of us understand what it’s like to either be that friend who takes the hand-outs or the one who gives them. If this behaviour starts to be a normal pattern (they don’t have anything and they leave it up to you to provide) it is probably best to put a stop to it before a codependency issue is created.
4. The not-so active Nobody is immune to laziness. Those who sit around doing nothing make others also want to just sit around and do nothing. Not even those who are considered to be mentally strong are safe from becoming lazy. Spend enough time with a lazy person and you will start feeling a lack of motivation and the need to become immobile.
5. The “I” Specialists Those who say “I can do…” and ” I have so many… ” are unlikely to actually do these things or anything else for that matter. “Actions speak louder than words,” we are told. There are those who understand that and do what they say they will do, and there are those who are always talking about doing stuff.
6. Those who inaccurately refer to themselves as “depressed”, “OCD”, or other Mental issues, now I’m not talking about clinically depressed or ones who actually are OCD, or other real mental issues who actually need prescribed medication and seek help to better their life. We’re talking about the ones who behave as if they are depressed, for which there is no medication. The ones who are constantly making up reasons as to why their lives are so crap and that they are so very unlucky. We all make choices in our life that have consequences which we have the choice to either deal with or not. It is not recommended to hang around with those who cannot face up to their choices.
7. The ones who prefer not to go along for the ride If you’re a thrill-seeking adventurist type person, asking your couch-bound introvert friend to go sky-diving probably won’t return the best response. The people we choose to keep in our immediate circle of friends will direct our paths more than we realize.
8. Those who don’t dream Everyone has dreams, but what defines the way we live our lives is whether or not we act on those dreams and believe that they can change things for the better. Those who don’t dream will do their best to convince you that dreams are just silly, pointless dreams
I do have a 9 and 10 the 1-8 I found and agree with and noticed for the most part that is why I’ve been cutting people off.
9. The ones who won’t take responsibility for their actions, they blame others for their life, their choices, and things that happen to them from their choices.
For instance: You don’t have a licence, you don’t have insurance, you get pulled over and get in trouble. YOU cannot, I repeat YOU CANNOT FUCKING BLAME SOMEONE ELSE! YOU chose not to get your licence, you chose not to get insurance on your car, YOU got out and drove knowing all this, it’s not the police for doing their job, it’s not your friends/family/enemy. It is YOU, grow up.
10. Liers, I can’t deal with someone lieing to my face, or others, spreading lies and gossip when knowing nothing about the situation, not being the person/s in the situaton. I am too old for that shit. I’m too old for the drama and bullshit that follows this whole category.
I have more reasons but these seem to be the main ones why I cut people from my life. If you fit in any of these, you are toxic to me and either I’ve cut you out, or I have yet to.
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8 years

so 4 days ago marked 8 years that we lost my sister. I wish people understood no matter how long it might get easier for day to day, but when it hits the day she passed and her birthday it’s so much harder. Not only are you seeing you lost someone, but how much time has past. You realize how many more you have lost through that time as well. We lost daddy back in September. So the day was mainly thinking of Destinee, but also Daddy now. Trying to just tell myself it’s better neither are in pain now, and that they are together. Does that make me any less sad, no. Does that make me any less hurt, nope. So when you tell me it will get easier, No… no, it doesn’t. Not really. Not on the days it happens. Not on special days, no matter what I tell myself, no matter what you tell me, you think you are helping, you really aren’t.

This is not something you “get over”, When I lost my grandma’s it hurt, I was sad, but honestly It’s much easier because they where older, I expected it one day. I never expected my Sister to die at 17, I never thought my dad would never be able to walk me down the isle again. I never thought the last day I spent with dad would literally be the last day I’d have time with him. It sucks, I hate it, and nothing anyone says will help me.

I try and be there for others, I know the things I say are the same shit that others say to me, I know it’s all I know what to say, it’s being nice, its trying to help settle their mind. But really, it’s nothing more than making the person saying it feel better, the actual person it is happening to, no, I sigh and roll my eyes, my mind says so much, but my face I smile, and say yes, and thank you. It makes no difference the words that come from your mouth, hug and be there for them. When they want to keep busy because it’s easier for them that day, don’t say they are wrong for doing it. It’s how I cope with things.

I could be doing much worse than keeping myself busy on these days. I could do worse and I have done worse to cope sometimes. We all have and we all do, it’s human. This isn’t what I wanted to type out for this year for Destinee, I wanted to do something to remember her. Maybe a little later I will.

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Sinking ship

Today, I’m just down, depressed. I didn’t know why but just am. I realized what it is. I mourn the loss of possibility, of promise, of our pursuit of happiness. The POTUS is suppose to HELP the people, not make things harder on us. Not make us jump through red tape for simply wanting something to make us happy and our life a little easier. The POTUS is suppose to work for us, the government is suppose to work for us, to fear us, not us to fear them.
Absolutely devastating… This repeal of ACA is estimated to take away health insurance from 40 million people, 4 million of which are children. Harvard School of Public Health estimates 26,000 deaths this year… Do I need to worry for my love, or myself? No, We are lucky, We have put much thought in to the last couple years to get off of ACA for myself, and I’ve been off for a while now, We did research and planned, we talked and figured things out so I wouldn’t have to stay on ACA, I was only on it for one year, We are lucky, and we knew to plan. We plan everything honestly, at least everything that can be.
 
But what about, my family? My two brothers where one doesn’t have a job, and one I’m sure doesn’t have insurance, at least not yet through his job. What about my mother who just lost part of her insurance, what about my mother who has been prediagnosed illnesses that can stop her from getting insurance once ACA is gone (she’s not on it right now but it is an option for her) or if her other insurance is lost. What about all the other families out there?
 
You see, when I didn’t vote for the Orange Moron, I wasn’t thinking about myself in this, I was thinking about so many others. When I fight for rights, They don’t always come in line with my life, You see unlike most of the people I know and associate with, ACA is all they have, Their marriage, their bodies, their choices, their rights for these are slowly being took away. When I say I am a feminist it’s not because I am a women, it’s because I believe in all human rights, no matter gender, sex, color, race, sexual orientation, if you are poly or monogamous, you should have the rights of anyone else. You should be happy, you shouldn’t have to appease anyone else, and no one else should have any what so ever control over your choice for your life.
 
He is a greedy orange monster, and we are going to be in a very bad relationship for the next 4 years. Even after he fucks us over (already started) and he is out of office our money will still line his pockets. He never wanted this position, he wanted the name, he wanted to pull off the biggest con of his life and he did it, we will be paying him for the rest of our/his life to fuck us for the next 4 years, but even that the things he signs and puts in to order may fuck us for years after that. Our bodies, our water, our planet should be important to him, but it’s not. He’s in it for the money and fame. He’s in it for himself, even after breaking the constitution he’s still in house, I don’t see him getting impeached because our government has major flaws.
 
I don’t want to live here anymore, if I had the money I’d move so fast, I would have already been out of here. For the first time in my life, I see as the world see’s the USA and I’m completely embarrassed to be an American. It was humiliating that he even got to the point of a possibility of being president but him making it is a complete and utter embarrassment.
 
If you honestly don’t feel embarrassed that the rest of the world see’s all Americans as stupid, racist, and they honestly believe all American’s are like trump. Then you are part of the problem. You are willing to look away from facts and believe that he was good for our country, to literally fight and argue when facts are out there, they are being shown to you.
 
I’m sorry to say this but you deserve everything that is going to happen the next 4(+) years. What happens here is going to have an rippling effect. Unfortunately in to dirty, toxic water.
 
I can’t leave, I want to, believe me I do. Maybe not completely out of our nation, but out of this state, because there are a few decent states still out there (CA/NY) I know I want out of Texas, this I’ve always known to be a horrible state, but at least I’m close to Houston where they are more open, and more realistic for the most part.
 
I mourn for our nation, I mourn for our people, because no matter how much we disagree, no matter how much fighting, and protesting, and ugliness is out there, we are on the same boat here. The orange moron willing to be at the front of a ship and put holes in the rear is still going to take us all down.

~Glitch

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